My feelings

You know everyday I wake up with a hurt feeling I don’t feel like I’m part of my family I don’t know why maybe I’m over thinking but the way they act with me is stressful . It’s always been about my sister she’s the perfect one some times she does like she loves or maybe even love me for real but I think it’s fake because I can’t talk to her about my feelings .I’m hurt every single day I wake up in my life that’s why I want to leave but every time I think about this perfect guy GOD has sent into my life I stay that’s why I haven’t gave up yet